I love change…..And more often than not for me change, sometimes radical change, brought my idea of freedom closer to me. I was searching for it constantly, in the hope that I would finally feel like myself, be happy and free, in the way I thought it should be.
Someone once said to me, ‘You are a person who thrives on change.’ And that person was right… in a way. I got bored, I moved. Things went wrong, I moved. I moved house, city, job, friends. I lived my ‘reactive’ life in many different houses, doing many different jobs, in many different cities and with many different people.
Some of those moves were amazing and yet, I realise now, that a lot of the time, I wasn’t being proactive and bold and ‘thriving’ on change. I was actually running away from something.
Change is great, it’s magnificent, it can bring tremendous feelings of freedom… so long as it revolves around a magical commitment and that commitment is to yourself. It’s taken me a while, but I now know that the something I was running away from was my commitment to me.
So, I stopped. I started to really take notice of what was going on around me and inside me. I watched the trees change colour, I was truly present with the people I love. I was in awe of how free and full of love my little niece is, how happy go lucky and in the now my dog is.
For the first time in my life, I allowed myself to feel all my feelings properly, however amazing or awful they seemed to me. I realised that it doesn’t matter where you are, who you are with or even what job you are doing, so long as you are happy being you.
I still love change. I’m making it my career. My purpose is to help other people live it and navigate it confidently and clearly and with a healthy, happy commitment to themselves and their journey.
After all, everything starts and ends with you. You make the choices, you make the moves and you take the action to make your life exactly as you want it to be